Pastor Linda Grill’s Testimony

Testimony of Overcoming CancerLinda

In June of 1996 my Journey began I was still working through some of the residue of grief from my mother’s death in Jan of that year my mom was a very devoted mom and my best prayer warrior

One night I was taking a bubble bath just relaxing and all of a sudden I had this strong feeling to get out of the bath tub and anoint every door post of my home. I thought why would I do that?? And pushed the thought out of my mind few minutes later stronger than before I felt almost compelled to get out of the tub immediately an do it, I thought how will I ever explain this to Rich? I can’t reach the top of the door posts..I prayed if this is you Lord you will already have him prepared to do it .I went downstairs told Rich what God told me to do and he said let’s do it. When we got to the last door I asked the Lord just exactly why we are doing this? He said so the Angle of death passes over this house.

About a month later I began to experience terrible stomach and heartburn at times not always but enough to go to the Dr. who gave medication for it. for another month I experienced the pain so I returned to the Dr. who said let get another opinion (he told me later he very rarely send anyone to a Specialist that soon but he felt compelled to do so)

During my quiet time while waiting to go to the next Dr God began to give me scriptures then didn’t impress me at that time as much as they would later in to my journey. The first one was Matt 6:24-34

Matthew 6:24-34

6:24 “No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other; or else he will be devoted to one and despise the other. You can’t serve both God and Mammon.

6:25 Therefore, I tell you, don’t be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn’t life more than food, and the body more than clothing?

6:26   See the birds of the sky, that they don’t sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren’t you of much more value than they?

6:27 “Which of you, by being anxious, can add one cubit to the measure of his life?

6:28 Why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow. They don’t toil, neither do they spin,

6:29 yet I tell you that even Solomon in all his glory was not dressed like one of these.

6:30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today exists, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, won’t he much more clothe you, you of little faith?

6:31  “Therefore don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’, ‘What will we drink?’ or, ‘With what will we be clothed?’

6:32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.

6:33 But seek first God’s Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well.

6:34 Therefore don’t be anxious for tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Each day’s own evil is sufficient.

I went to the specialist and she did every kind of test you could think of and nothing showed up she then told me there was only one last test to do but she really didn’t think she would find anything but she felt we needed to do it is it was ordered and was done..before I was to return for the results God gave me another scripture.

Luke 22:31-32

“Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers

I returned to the Dr to receive the report

She informed me that she had found a tumor it had eaten through the wall of my intestine into the lymph and it was cancerous. t I was then sent to a surgeon she said she could not tell me anything about the outcome of the surgery because she would not know till she went in and evaluated the situation. There was no guarantee that I would not need a colostomy bag I would have to wait and trust the Lord.

Needless to say I felt I was put on a tread mill and just going through the motions of living between Dr visits not realizing when anyone talked to me about my situation I felt like they were talking about someone else it couldn’t be me that was experiencing this nightmare, or could it?

One day before the operations I was watching my grandsons who were about 6 and 8 at the time and they knew there was something wrong with their Me maw but were too young to really get the full picture, so when we were having lunch that day I was cutting up peaches and one of them had a rotten spot in it, so I called the boys and explained we were going to cut out this spot and the peach would be fine and then we could enjoy it for lunch, I told them that the Dr found a rotten spot in my intestine and that she was going to cut it out and I would be fine. I told them they should pray for me and tell that spot to get out of there

Me maw in Jesus name

Kids take you very serious at time so they took me in the living room I laid down on the floor and they laid hands on the area and started to holler and yell in the name of Jesus rotten spot you get out of my Memaw you have no right in her get out get out in Jesus name!!

It was quite the session of deliverance for a 6 & 8 yr. old..another thing that happen to me was God gave me another puzzle piece in the picture He was putting together I had no idea when He gave it to me how it fit and why I was sitting in church one Sunday and after the service a women came up to me and said you don’t know me I live in Florida and I am a visitor here today never been here and probably won’t ever be back but God gave me a message for you he says don’t believe the x-ray report don’t believe the Drs, report God says there is no spot with in you, Well I was puzzled because they said there was a tumor in the upper Rt. Side blocking the bowel..

DSC_5109The date for my surgery came and I went in to the hospital still thinking this can’t be me this is happening to Denial was finally broken and reality set in as I was being transported down the hall to the operating room and the large bright light in the ceiling slapped me into reality finally I realized Holy Toledo its me they are talking about the surgery went well. Dr said to me she was amazed when she opened me up an when she went to remove the tumor she said it literally jumped out at her she said it really didn’t want to be in there any longer God reminded me of my two little Grandsons and their praying over their Me-maw with the God given authority they have what a big lesson learned for me about authority over the enemy!! I did not have to have a colostomy bag that was a huge blessing. The next step after a few weeks or re-coop time was a visit to your friendly oncologist

I was the first patient of a oncologist that came from Fox chase hospital young handsome and very good but the personality of a drill sergeant He began to set up my regiment of treatments starting with rounds of chemo followed up with sessions of radiation

I took my first set of chemo and decided its not for me I had this very small voice that said I will take care of you ..another voice said you’re going to die and you are kidding me and then was my Dr who said have you lost your mind..I will not be responsible for the outcome of this decision you are taking a high risk an the stats are not on your side..if this spreads to you Pancreas you will be dead in six months… I told him I was not doing the treatments he agreed to continue to follow me up closely but no responsibility for outcome of the decision of my choice.

I cried all the way home and I would love to say I had a wonderful time of recuperation that followed and that I was a strong spiritual warrior but that didn’t happen .it was the most bitter/sweet experience ever. As time went on my body healed and recuperated excellently…But wow the work that had to be done with my emotions and flesh and the trust issues in my spirit was another matter. I was truly benign sifted and it was NOT pretty. The enemy had lost the battle to kill my flesh but he was counter attacking my emotions, mind and faith the scripture that came to mind was Ephesians 6:12

12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.

The year that followed was very trying as an person that has been through cancer the side effects of the drugs can be horrendous and it take a while till you body comes back into balance chemically and hormonally. Even though my mind and emotions were raging an the enemy was feeding me lies about how God didn’t love me or provide for me and even when there seemed to be a big gray cloud of depression and death over me God was all around me. In my loving caring husband, family friends and was speaking to me in a very small quiet deep in my spirit voice in all the thunder.

Rich and I experienced heavenly visitation and visions like we have not had before..One night around midnight a very bright light appeared in our bed room at the bottom of our bed and spoke to Rich with the message why are you made at me your wife is healed of course I slept through the whole thing.

I spent many days lying on the floor in our back bed room in sun with my Bible on my chest crying out to the Holy Spirit to be DSC_1506 (2)changed as I did the Holy Spirit would wash over me and a times give me a vision one vision was of me as a little girl I was curled up in Jesus arms with my head on his breast hearing his heart beat I could see other children play and they would come and ask if I could play and Jesus would say not right now she is resting..some time I would see flies trying to bother me and Jesus was shooing them away protecting my rest from the littlest disturbance.

The other vision was of me coming to a meeting I was dressed in a black pants suit and carrying a brief case I look very disguised  I entered in to what was a conference room at a large round table and there were three other people present but I could not see them clearly but my spirit knew it was Father God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit..the Father told me were a family business He was the founder and President Jesus was the Vice president and the Holy Spirit was the Administer and it was the HS that would train me to be the one who would go and represent the family business.

That was 15 years ago I still have times when God grants me insight to that time in my life and I have AHA moments of O that’s what you were doing .I forgot to tell you a year after I stopped the chemo they found a spot on my pancreas ..My oncologist looked at me and said we have two options go in and test it or wait. I chose to wait as I left confused and baffled God said Linda remember the lady from Florida THERE IS NO SPOT WITH IN YOU!!!

Isaiah 40:28-31

28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.  Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;  but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Did you know an Eagle sometime in its life looses it feathers it finds the highest rock it can find next to the sun and lays spread Eagle and just soaks up the Sun

O and about the visions I still crawl up on Daddy’s lap and sleep that the place to be when life comes at you with the chemo of life

I end with this God really has a sense of humor even the word cancer brings fear in your life fear of operation, fear of Dr’s fear of death one day I was watching a Veggie tale story with my Grandsons and on came the song GOD IS BIGGER THAN THE BOOGIE MAN well we had a great time laughing and singing that song and I remember saying thank you Lord that a great thing for my grandsons to remember you are so good!!! God said Linda that’s song is for you, so when I got scared I would sing that song in the car or where ever at the top of my lungs GOD IS BIGGER THAN THE BOOGIE MAN!!!!

O Yes the vision I did get a secular job where I worked in a chaplain office and taught Sunday school for the elder and Alzheimer’s unit visited the sick in the hospital and I did carry the black brief case and wore the black paints suit. I real know now we are in a Spiritual Battle Not of flesh and blood and the enemy does not fight fair he is determined to wipe us out any way he can.

 

Blessings

Linda Grill

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